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Lost Love

"All love is bittersweet. Love is inexplicable; it is part poetry and part masochism. Part of love is the loss of self-control because one must openly surrender their sense of an exclusive self to the manic powers of love. The personal act of surrender to a lover leaves one vulnerable to entanglement in a maze of emotions. When we fall in love, our lover’s happiness and well-being assumes the primary role in our mind, they become copilots of our souls. When we are in love for the first time, we feel what it means to become a complete person; we identify who we are by seeing our reflection in our lover’s eye; and we sense what we might become when infused with love. When our lover leaves us, we feel vexed and vacant because we recognize that they took up such a large part of what made us feel intoxicated with life. When our lover abandons us, we lose our sense of self; we temporarily cease to exist as a whole person, and we must reconstruct the shattered remnants of oneself i...
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Oh what a silly human I am with feelings...

Feelings are such tricky things. They can be as wonderful as the prettiest of sunsets, or as terrible as the darkest night. These two polarities join together and form an insatiable bond inside the heart, which rages on and on. A merciless duo they are. Lying in wait, seeking to make an utter fool of you the next time you see those glimmering eyes or hear any words from that certain voice... All the while, their victim is left stunned, never quite knowing if such hope is consuming that overwhelming sense of dread or whether these wonderful feelings are instead plunging the heart deeper and deeper into terror & despair. Which will prevail? Such a fine line... Yet it feels like the weight of the whole Wonderful world is teetering right on the edge... never knowing which side it may come tumbling down upon. There is nothing more wonderful, yet nothing more singularity terrifying! Persistently and relentlessly these feelings continue to haunt. They play their little games... He...

Life is Not a Fairytale

Life is not a fairytale. It's a gruesome existence full of striving and death. Nightmares become reality and steal the innocence from even the purest of hearts and brightest of lights. Shattered hearts cry out for hope. Someday they will be healed. Someday every tear wiped away. Until then, this race must be ran. As this plotline rips, pulls and mames this fragile soul there is a Savior sovereignly orchestrating all into perfect harmony. Eternity is just beyond the horizon. How sweet it looks! Oh to just be free from this nightmare! Oh to have the faith that I know I should! I confess that I am weak in so many areas.... I want to be strong, yet I fail each day! I know I was what is right yet I do not always do it! I do not desire to be strong in myself alone, for that would be folly... But instead to be fully tested and found faithful. Able to withstand every fiery trial that is brought my way... Weilding His strength alone. Less of myself and more of Him...  That...

The Human Condition

Thoughts are racing, darkness chasing Screaming, fighting, demons facing... No control, endless struggle... Desperate extols and pleads for self control All. Fade. Giving birth to an endless, fiery hell, Which keeps on razing... Deep inside, that heart should be breaking! Deep inside, we all are faking. But His light can illuminate the darkness. 

Imagine a world...

Imagine a world where everyday you hit the pillow being absolutely exhausted, overwhelmed by pain and emotionally distraught... In which every area of life seems to have been squished down & mashed up, like clay in the hands of a potter. A world in which you find yourself waking up in a panic to escape nightmarish dreams of depravity and horror. A world so busy with trivial things, always hunting and never catching. Always seeking... But never actually attaining. Lost, lonely and un-relenting... Without a savior this would be the only world possible. 🌏 But eternity is coming quickly, and I've set my hope on the Lord alone ❤️